"积少成多"

"积少成多"
many a little makes a little

kai
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PS,
300 000 YEN approximately = SGD $4k.
"It will only happen when you put $50 bucks each day" someone says . . .
i jux laugh . .

For a while . . .

On the first day of my sec school, he signals me to sit beside me. I guess he knew I was from the same pri school. I can’t remember much about the initial conversation. It probably revolved round beng wan primary school.

The four of us somehow became very close; our friendship deepened through the up and down of NPCC days. I’d fond memories during those days. I remembered our NCO training back at Mont Hill Sec School. As usual we cooked up some excuses to leave camp early without landing ourselves in jeopardy. Stomachaches, feeling unwell or urgent matters to look into back at home are the usual excuses. Now I wondered “Why aren’t the teachers suspicious when the 4 of us always ‘disappear’ together?” So we left the campsite, it started raining heavily. There was no shelter. Either the four of us or 2 shared one poncho, braving through the rain. I started singing some NPCC songs and the rest joined in. We do look like some idiots; but those were really the good old days.

Lots of things changes; from the days we played catching during recess to focusing more on our studies during upper secondary school days. He work hard and top our cohort that year.

He is my good friend, Ryan or rather ‘Lion’, which I often used to address him. He’d passed on recently.

I thank you Ryan for your little gesture, asking me to sit beside you; my first day would have been lost.

I didn’t think much, less appreciate those little things and memories till the tragedy. We only come to be grateful for certain things when we lose it. So friends treasure those moments, little things you’d spend with people around you.

Having said all this, I think I may just forgotten about all these in months times. We’re human afterall.


abstracted from http://packphour.wordpress.com/

kai
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i thought . . .

The strange behavior of this uncle had caught my attention of late. Almost every morning, I will see him with an umbrella underneath his underarm, scratching his head then unclipping his watch, slide it back and forth before clipping it back. It happened for 2 weeks. I concluded the observation as “obsessive compulsive disorder”. As urgent need to engage in certain ‘ritual ‘.

I brought this up with a good friend over cup of tea. He mentioned that must be a kinetic watch; which need constant movement to keep it moving. I was like “Oh!”
Here I’m sitting down feeling skeptic. I have my reasons:

- Must he wait till he get to the bus stop and start moving his watch?
- How about the pre-action before the sliding of watch; referring to the scratching of hair.



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Well, it just my thought, not concluding anything. . . =/

LOST

Some had congratulated me on my ORD. Many had asked me “So how the taste of freedom, after ORD?”

I usually replied with “Great, thanks”. I knew, however, the real “freedom” was during NS. I just had to meet the basic obligation of waking up @ ‘stipulated’ timing, conduct roll-call, routine works, and sleep and look forward to Friday, praying Sunday will come a bit later. That’s it. I knew Army is a time to plan/draft out your plan. I know what I wanted. However to proceed, I need to have a place in local University; which I’m still waiting; chances are definitely low, now.

So what’s plan B?

To study overseas; I’d always loved that. Money will be an issue. Yet to discuss with my dad and I will be going down for some of their open house during 29 MAY to check it out.

C?

SIM? Business? Accountancy, Banking, Finance, Economics, Business management all came toppling over me? In order not to be behind time, I go ahead with courses offered by UOL. Drop by 14 MAY to check it out. I’d till June.

D?

NIE? Teacher? Uncle just gave me this suggestion. I’m confidence to tutor individual; but to a class? Stable rice bowl, yes. To be a responsible good teacher, passion is required! I hope I will find that somehow.

E?

I had looked up other private institution like Klpan University. They do have some interesting courses like Bsc in Health Sciences & Bsc in Criminal Justice. KU is interesting; most of the studying/lessons is based online. Online reviews About the U aren’t really that promising though. . .

Meanwhile I’m waiting to commence on my temp job in 2 weeks times. While waiting, gym-ing, swimming to pass my day. + start requesting for an appealing letter from my lecturer. I had to sadly put my advance diving course aside.

I still keeping my finger cross still. .

I don’t wanna stuck @ this cross road.




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PS: I had already favourite NUS & NTU appealing page; 26 MAY and 20 MAY respectively. . .

TOKYO-YUI

This song talks bout putting everything down and venture into the unknown (new journey); If I became cowardly, I would be cut off there. I let something go and take something;if it’s that kind of repetition? I can’t simply choose the right thing. It’s fine being full of mistakes as each journey that comes with... the next morning has its doubtful places, right?

always will remain 1 of my fav from YUI. everything to it is nostalgic; like YUI leaving everything behind for TOKYO will face the journey once army is over~

The night linger still. . .

Last Friday was tired max out. Book out, heading straight from camp to Ubi for my driving lesson; i stopped by a coffee shop at EUNOS for my dinner. I felt a bolt of loneliness strike me as i sat by myself in a round table. The world was as if a vacuum around me, oblivious to my surrounding at that instance, before the clock start clicking and i could again feel the crowd around me. Sometime, you just wish someone special will be there by your side. . . “If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one” . ..

Oh well . . . my thought was disrupted when a handicapped man approached me with a pail, pleading for money. I knew i had some coins, a dollar and probably some other random coins from the change i had from my meal.. I dig into my pocket, but only manage to fish out 30 cents, i dropped them into his pail and continue eating. When he walked away, i dig in again to check for coins, as i’m sure that there should be a least a golden coin somewhere, i felt it, dig it out and wanted to pass to him but he was at another table; i put it back and continue eating. I felt disgusted after awhile, and couldn’t come to a conclusion.

I head to bus stop with my bag-pack (i was still in uniform), and take a bus down to UBI. I was half and hour early; found a place to sit down and wait; thinking nothing. Before long, lesson start . . . end and catch up with MEL. . . e night linger . .


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rain rain . . .

it was raining heavily; both Su-ho and Su-eun were in a little hut.

"Wonder if rain comes in drop, or in thread" Su-Ho.

Su-eun immediately tip-toed and gently kissed him on the lip. That moment, as if freezes in time for Su-Ho; he can see the droplets of rain.




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a little effort may go a long way . . .

Flipping through my head while idling on bus, I thought of a letter se d to my good old pal back in primary school . . .

I did mentioned before this guy couple of times before in this blog. . .

I’d remembered sending him a birthday card not long after I got transferred. He replied with a letter stating his birthday date and requesting for a present and in return will send me one. Inside was his photo and some other pals, i’d kept them in my wallet (yep , YEEW?) for 2 years or so before the good old wallet fell into the bowl and yea . ..

So . .. The page was flipped to the part where I just overlooked the present thing . . . so we lost touched for like 3 years before I’d the urge to dial him up (the last called lasted 2 + + +hrs, still the longest yet for both gender). I still remembered his home number as all the numbers cluster in the middle of telephone. “Just Dial and call” the feeling, the little fingers run through the pads but somehow you wished he hadn’t picked up (anyone had this kinda feelings before?)

This year I’d tried to look him up in facebook but to no avail. . . Another call perhaps?

Sometime with just a little effort, a beautiful picture may be paint. ..




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looking back

I was looking on my blog archive . . . wondering how’d i been spending my Christmas and Eve . . .

2006; watched midnight sun and got to learn bout singer-song writer cum actress-YUI.3 years had got since then huh? **I’d been blabbering to the guys that since then that eve, we should spend with our special someone; Christmas day with family and friends** it still the same now . . .


2007; with my sec pals again! I mentioned “It kind of PATHETIC that the four of us to be surrounded by ZOMG?THRONG of couples.” EMO EMO EMO . .. 2007 was really EMO for me . ..i wonder where i got this quote from “You will never get hurt when you never gave your heart to someone but you’ll never know the joy of sharing your heart with that special someone.” HMMM


2008; with little SIS and KAKIS!

2009: SEND OUT CHRISTMAS CARD ALAS! O’’O eve with some MERRYING & TOASTING . . . Christmas turns indoor again @ John’s place. . . **and i still cont blabbering bout 2006**

Will 2010 finally answer my 2006?


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i paint a wonderful picture today; hoping one day it becomes reality . . .

PS: keeping a diary is always good, to refect and look back =d .

Ugly Singaporean, REally

That was 2 week s ago after a long swim, it’s time for food! We dragged our feet to this coffee shop round novena area and it’s time to haunt for food! We decide to queue up for this prawn noodles. They served really BIG PRAWs and the queue was pretty long (a good sign for good food eh, as hinted by Ah ni). . . Alas as the as the stall drawn near, a man just came to him and said

“I just bought my drink, thanks for looking after the queue”, apparently trying to chap in
“Sir, I don’t know you, less remembering seeing you in front of me”

“Got la, just now remember, I was in front of you”, he managed to snipped in
I was about to raise voice when Ah ni stop me and asked me to ignore him. I took a deep breath and decided not to make a big scene either. She told me “You should have ignored him, like that the rest will stunt and look at him, making him feels guilty. . . “I thought the fact that “I strike a conversation with him make other believe that we knew each other” HAIZ.

He look like a successful business man, educated but what he did is really disgusting LA.


Early this morning; peeps queuing outside SIR building at 0730 (open at 0800) like machiam got some promotion like that. . A man just cut into another man queue ( 2 men behind me); that victim just stand there blurrly . . The same man attempt to cut 2 queues (in front) of me at the info counter; i blasted at him "Sir please queues behind".

This man really once bitten not shy la!

The man behind me said “Sir, you did the right thing!”

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everyone needs a superman, and be a superman himself

That was weeks back when I was at Alexandra Hospital going through my fortnightly physiotherapy. I saw this Indian guy, probably a foreigner with an arm bandage taking out his wallet to make payment. I saw 3 little girls, his daughters I presumed, and a family photo, all in heart shape, the moment his wallet was flipped opened.

“$100”, the cashier demanded.

“I don’t have money, mdm”

“$10, do you have $10?”

I walked away without witnessing what next? Didn’t he suppose to be covered by his company? I wondered. Guess many a time we human “take advantage on ignorant people”. . .I just prayed that thing goes well for him.

Anyway . .. .

Just last week, i was down with fever. Those who know me well will know my no-medication policy; someone who is an advocate believer of letting the body to heal itself. That night, my fever went up to 38, i believed. Refusing to take panadol, i went asleep. Obviously, i hadn’t had a good rest. I was tossing round the bed, waking up timely at 1hr interval. The next day chiong work, i was a zombine, fever subsided but almost immediately resurface randomly. So the week was cleared with random headaches throughout the day. I am totally BREAKDOWN!


So I was given 2 days off, i took 1 and rewind myself and came to realize something
“we are human after all, we’ll fall sick and fell down, and rest is needed to go a longer distance”



“forcing a sick body to work is relatively equal to underproductive work”

GAMBAETTTE KAI!!!


Kai
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Influence

Read last week news about the join-suicide-attempt of a group of boys; of which 2 ended their life sadly. Apparently, the group was influence by this guy who claimed or so he said that “they’d to sacrifice their life as a tribute to be slayer t o save mankind from destruction”.

His intention was sure kind/innocent enough, “to save the mankind”; regrettably no one was there to stop/prevent this strategy. The paper mentioned he came from a Taoist family and his grandma sought of influence him in his thinking (if I’d remembered the news correctly).



Anyway, what I’m trying to drive across here is how child’s minds are so easily influence, if not being manipulated. I remembered back in primary school, I had this friend of mine who also claimed that he can summon some supernatural things to “protect” him, or fire some “fireball” by doing some stance, which is invisible to naked to eye of course. Some of my pals and I were fascinated by it and beginning to believe in it. We even meet up after school and have some “ritual”, of which we sit in circle and chat something. Believe that I possessed the “fireball” power, I even “blast” it at my brother when we had a quarrel or something and saying things like “This will make you suay, or bad luck “He did the same back? I can’t really remember how the practice/ritual ceased though.


In e end the 2 jumped; seeing no slayers being reborn, the rest was reluctance to jump
out the window.


Kai
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getting back!

'You weren't made to run' said the physiotherapist glancing at my potential fleet feet. . i was totally taken by this comment. . .

running/swimming is in me, they never failed to made me feel good about myself! i recalled i went for my constant 2.4km run, at least 3 times and +1 swim /wk regime before BMT. i did all this with discipline, for pride and stuff without noticing i'd actually aggregating my old injuries. i just continue. .. all these brings to nothing now . . .

well i'd been resting for months now (though i still went for swim at times, when i wasnt supposed to), now slowly to get my jogging back, start slowly kai! =]

i'd always tell my frens "my heart can take it, but my legs can't" for the matter. =/

My pride, my plight

Many things had happened for the past weeks. . .

First was my decision of getting down-graded of PES status that I could be out of course from Amour infantry (AI). This left knee cap of mine had been bugging me even before BMTC (I’m sure I’d mentioned somewhere in my blog). . . the pride within me had help me pushed on (you know a typical LEO cares lots about his ‘face’ than his ‘ARSE’. I remembered I was made to re-run SOC over and over again till I finally passed, though SOC was not even a criterion in getting to command school. It was then the ache slowly turns to pain. .. I just get few days’ medical status and ta-da I’m ready to run again.

I didn’t know how serious the injury was till I finished my 24km road march. I could felt this sharp pain climbing up down of stairs. I was worried about my injury for the first time. ‘Will I be alright?’ Will I be alright?’ I took every step carefully every single day, praying hard each day that the pain will ease off just like that. Luckily the 10 days break was enough for the pain to subside temporary. Soon the rigorous training at SISPEC; the pain re-surfaced. I feared that I would experience the sharp pain when walking up and down of stairs again, so medical off was an option. So whenever the pain came, Iill visit the MO. Oblivious to my condition, some will pass comments like CK (chao’-keng) or in other words skiving through. Thankfully I’d wonderful section mate who’d motivated me through the course, helping me carrying the matador during outfield (I could still remembered vividly). I still managed to pass the veto factor even though I’d missed lots of physical training, I could jump the SBJ, I was like ‘oh I’d fully recovered’!!

Then came the rehearsal for passing out parade (POP) for SISPEC. As a member of drill squad back in BMTC (GOLD), I felt that I must execute the drills perfectly, banging hard, making sharp turn and such. .. At the end of the day I could felt this ache but my prideful-self just want to continue (I felt that I was obligated to do well cux after-all some knew I was from drill squad).

So the preparation leads to absenting from the actual day of POP. The whole platoon will march through the night of 28km into the parade square straight for POP. I fall out somewhere near 16km, as I could felt the pain aggregating/haunting/pestering me, even though I’d tape it hard. I grit my teeth, looking down at the pavement and count every step I took; pushing on. If not for the motivation from my PC, I would already want to fall out at the 12km point. I walked to a point where tears came rolling down, I really wanted to give up badly. .. it could be the phobia of the pass road march that that traumatize me since then or the pain was not bearable any more. .. so in the end I fall out from the march, didn’t join the POP but getting my CPL rank after the POP.

I was posted to amour infantry soon after as a specialist. Darn! That was the worst vocation one can go to, which I didn’t wished to elaborate.

The first weeks was driving phase which required frequent jumping up and down from vehicle. One could have climbed down from the side, but I didn’t want to be the odd one out so I continued jumping down from vehicle. Very soon the pain re-surfaced. I took the pain-killer the MO had given me. I thought I was invincible for that moment. I chiong every SOC training like mad dog, desperations to gain back what I had missed. The setback? Once the pain-killer looses it effect, the pain came yet again; I’d further aggregate the injury without me knowing. Now the pain takes weeks to ease off unlike back in BMTC. I’d a x-ray taken but the doc said nothing was wrong. I guess a MRI is required.

Toppled up with that, my current section mate didn’t know my situation! They see me as CK, from the frequent visit to MO. Details. ..i don’t wana mentioned about it. . .

I gave a thought; there no more point to ‘tong’ and ‘chiong’ anymore. The fire within was quenched. I decided to give up. . . but of course I’d to change my mentality that it is for my own good (no point risking and suffer at older age, such serve and fuck off (SAF), and not because of them. Interestingly they had been treating me differently, for the better since the day I’m pending for out of course. Perhaps they now knew it was a genuine case, if not I wouldn’t have had the long medical leave of 84 days which is enough to be out of course.
So now, I’m doing paper work- a office boy who had to swallow humble pie. . . but I guess this will be temp, I’ll be back when I recovered! =] ROAAAAAAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

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I'D always believe in fairy tales, its no wonder i fell in love with this song when my sis intro it to me!

Taylor Swift-Love Story

Love Story - Taylor Swift

wheN priDe oVerrIDE senseS

My left knee cap really chui liao la! These days keep feeling this sharp ache even when I’m resting. This injury had been with me since Tekong-time. The pain was occasionally, I visited MO, but they just said nothing was wrong, same thing happen at SISPEC till I arrived at Gedong. The MO gave me this anti-inflammation /pain killer drug.

I took it and just of that instant I felt I could do anything, so I chiong SOC, circuit training, but when the drug wear off, then this constant ache comes. Guess I had further aggregate the injury to the max. So I knock on their door again and said they will refer me to specialist and had them examined, which dragged for another month or so.
Meanwhile, guess I just pray for the better.

Yesterday night was spend at jenny’s house for steamboat! Really wen-xin la!


e SPred!



backstage


mum-mum










random stone



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simple yet swt!

So how does Kai spend his Christmas Eve? He joined his 3 kakis who knew each other for 7+ years, for dinner at Aston for some beefy steaks, followed by grabbing some sushi, drinks for game of Risk (u know that board game) @ my house. Guess this was the 4th time this year! LOL!!!

So we played through the night, till my clock struck and my dog bark, and a toasting of some sparkling juice, with me having the honor of popping the cork of the bottle out my 23rd story floor; did it hit anyone?


I’d always'd this thought since 2006, that Christmas Eve or Christmas day itself should be spend with someone dearly like, your partner; should be romantic and is really pathetic to spend with frens, but I guess spending with close pals, simple as it is yet is heart-warming enough to see through the festive. =]



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[photos with John; usually is either me or lion or stm clins taking the shoots, @__@]

01. The Way You Look At Me - Christian Bautista


yesterday was 2th anniversary i came to know YUI, ahhaha. . . i jump back to my older posts on how i spend my eve, and all were revolving on the same topic. . .

mooching choc

BOOK OUT BOOK OUT DAY

Finally come back from Tekong and back to CIVILIAN LIFE; oh God how I missed it! We were advised not to blog details on the things we did back in camp, thus yea to keep it vague. .

I remembered on the first night when 13 unknown strangers come together in the same bunk and sleep together, the atmosphere was kinda weird but luckily there were this joker around to break ice, the self introduction was made and stuff. Is kinda scary that only within 2 weeks I witnessed all sought of peeps, those ‘wayang’ one whom acts good in front of superior but anyhow behind their back, those purposely stirred up conflict among the group, those who plays ‘psychological’ warfare and sought of peeps. I played the quiet one and keep observing.

During the 2 weeks stay, I was pretty shut off, lack initiative, lack enthusiasm; perhaps I hadn’t get used to the life there yet, but hopefully for the next book in, I will show some of those traits!

As for training, my pull-up on the first day was like 7 (NAFA was 9), as the days goes average was like 2-4 that I failed my IPPT trial test! LOL la, first time failed’ NAFA’ (cux we were doing pull up like every day, that my muscles had yet to recover, zzz!)even my most confident station shuttle sprint from under 10s to 10.4s for the trial IPPT (pull up was my first station, think demoralize laio). LOL!
Kai had to put in more enthu and initiative on his next book in! do it whole heartedly!

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Anyway the chronicle of my life before army (part 7) last day before army was spend with my kawaii-frens (from kawaii-tokyo), at this Sunset Tarvarn, nice place to chill at, the view, the sunset. . . follow that was doing my crazy confession on that night; and we both agreed that was kinda rush.. so yea that’s was that! =]


I MISS MY HAIR LA!


the finger-foodies HOW I DARN FREAKIMG MISS IT




after---


during the stay, i eat & drink much more then i can ever imagine, but still light weight, due to high metabolic rate and high level of activities, i realized i cursed much more like 'WTF' think i'll be more rugged as the days go!

had some minor injuries on my knee caps, haiz, over strain. dry cough and such zzz

touCh me / toUCh me not

Someone recently just spark my interest in occult or otherwise referred as ‘hidden wisdom’. We’re talking about supernatural thing when she mentioned Wicca. I remembered mentioning the term in my blog sometime back during my attachment period when I’d nothing better to do and done some read up on it over the net.

People usually associate the term with witchcraft/evil/Satanism and stuffs, a major stereotype. I’m not into this kind of New Age thing, but will just read it up to satisfy my curiosity. Those little spell that evolve round imagination, like imagine water washing away those ‘evil/sad thoughts’ as you having a bath or something is pretty psychological kind of thing and is ‘touchable’. Those revolved round tools, drawing of circle; chatting to me is a touch-me-not art, so yea. . . But who knows, when one is drive into 1 corner, they might just turn to this kind of divinity for aids. All things doesn’t come free, there is always an equal trade in, you gain something; you’ll lose something. Perhaps the 3-fold thing is there to restrict people from touching the not-to-touch things, but is always safer to believe; there ate always rules to follow


Anyway, I totally agree with 1 of their ‘teaching’, about the concern for the environment like aboriginal-based religions. Quotes ‘They strongly respect and care for the earth itself, and all of its species of animals and plants. They feel closely tuned to the cycles of nature and to the earth itself. They reject the concept, mentioned in Genesis 1:28, that mankind is to subdue the earth and to dominate all of its living creatures. They feel that humans should live in cooperation with other species and with the universe.’

It weird but sometime when I pass by this park, the tree with its bark tainted black from the car exhaust; I will unknowingly felt sorry for them. . . @___@

Kai
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wanted to jog this morning, but it rain la! so decide to walk up stairs instead (a 3mins plus exercise from 1st to 23rd stories), zzzz then perhaps jog latta the evening. . .


wa!!!!!!!! my physical fitness drop like mad la

3++ km run from 18mins(i think) to 22mins
pull up from 9 drop to 6
sit up don need mentioned, 20 shag laio

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ @20:18

ThoUghts

Someone asked me a question that really struck me.

‘So you like wearing mask la’ she asked.

We were having some conversation when she told me that I’m so outspoken.

I told her ‘actually I’m like not that in school; very quiet and stuff’

She gave me a total disbelief gesture before asking me that question.
I gave a thought, I didn’t literally/purposely behaved like that in different scenarios, perhaps the job need it that it just comes naturally, and in school is not necessary that it just hid right within.

With that
Kai
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Browsing through youtube for some Chinese songs; going karaoke later @__@

OuGht to BE

Sometime I thought I ought to be bighearted, but having too much will be taken for granted easily (I know it myself). But I guess it’s alright if it’s a family’s member.

Kai
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