桜 & 恋

Sunday, December 11, 2005


"love is a illusion, i should try to forget...", came humming in my head. For those who know mltr this pharse will br familiar.. to love someone is it a burden or is it a relieve? with love there always someone else there to support, at the same time may drag you down the drain, the world is equal and opposite isn't it? nothing in world is perfect? , then why cam e a phrase "prastice make perfect".. boy out of point.. now now, one may argue that 1 love xxx hence willing to sacrifie for xxx , is a common theme in many romance movies or trategy titanic, example.. yea, man back to reality, can love really be tt strong? all these die for love one mindset is just deluding the young minds.. they think to love is to die for the other spouse.boy! oh yea i talking about bgr love not brotherly or parently(got such word?) love.. bascially love btw a girl and guy first come through facial affection.. both enjoy each looks.. they never go deep into consider their characters etc.. in the end both break up say a week,both ended up sad then set on a journy to look for belle or a cute guy..a vicious cycle. but of course some look into the character too..back t love is illusion ..because one tend to look at the face not the inner self, xxx may look like an angel, deep inside a devil? again i find a proverd "systoms of love is to love more... "but what if the llove is miserable then loving more means hurting one more?again 1 may argue i never tasted love bgr not in postion of telling all these? however i seen couples break and form repeatly in my school..a small handful cannot determine this.. look at usa divorce rate.. boom increaisng..above all love may be in illusuion, but with thses illusion there nay be some bitter sweet memories , that alone satisfy man for relationship..

kai sighning off

Saturday, December 10, 2005

the day with cucaracha(cockroach), learned stm

well this my first posting.. hmm.. tt was about a week ago. i was brushing my teeth, when i saw this gigantic cockroach with its (those 2 long thingy in front of its head) is it call feelers? oh well, it was standing .. no resting beside me on floor, we were bout 10 cm apart.. k, here i am brushing my teeth then nxt to me is a roach.. thinking cockroach able to fly up high.. god i living on 23 floor.. a super roach.. indeed,, i was irritated at the sight... admitt at the same time was scared.. lol..i decided to killed it.. smashing it came across my mind.. thinking of the ooze , the idea pass me.. then i thought of drowning it.. yes tt cruel say all u wan..@@ it stop moving about 15 sec later. thought it was dead.. back to brushing of teeth..then what suprise me was its alive! moving again, the roach had resurrected.. NAh i realised that it was just playing dead later(world is but of stage?).. smart move har..bleh.. i decided to scorch it this time, using hot water. it stop moving.. i was darn sure i got it this time.. yet again it survive.. looking at the roach i was surprise what strong will to live this roah have. how many humans out there has such a strong will out there? are we not comparable to a tiny winy roach.. all heel to e roach.. lol..@@ what happen the roach? i left it as it was..couldn't bear trying kill it again..

kai signing off